Ok here's something new i've learnt from God's Word:
Gossip = Murder / any other sin
So i've been looking out for myself doing any twittering behind people's backs or even sitting in to listen
I'm trying to stop entertaining gossipers, really
Because..


I just hope my friends have patience with me, them being the world and watching me make my stand. I just hope they have the sensitivity to not expose words I use in which guilt should fall upon. It was so embarrassing having myself get exposed to someone else whom I told 'Don't talk about people like that'.
Suddenly I realise how critical the world is.
To say someone looks gross is an entire level from saying "her hair's straightness is weird".
But somehow it was placed on the same scale which really hurt me because of how she exposed me, and I walked off feeling extremely wronged for it.
That table of friends doesn't feel the same anymore anyway.
Sure, you can call me a social butterfly or whatever, but I know what friends deserve to be cherished, not friends who leave you at the parade square waiting all alone when you called her personally on the phone 20 minutes before, hoping she'll at least have the bloody heart to come downstairs and sit with you.
Yeah you might probably think 'why is she still harping over this?' but holes will remain holes forever and I'll always remember the way you think of yourself first and never others.
Never others.
I know you might probably tell someone else you think it's you and I'd like to say YES IT'S YOU and I don't go un-liking a person without seeing through someone's heart (at least not for people like you, that is).
You might probably say that I'm awful and evil and proud. Say whatever you wanna.
I don't wanna sound like someone who's self-righteous but if I had told you, will you change to see yourself for who you are around people? You say yeah? Could I just say that IT'S SO EASY FOR WORDS TO COME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH AND YET YOU NEVER ACT ON IT. I'VE SEEN IT FAR TOO MANY TIMES AND IT SCARES AND CHEATS ON OUR FRIENDSHIP, EVEN.
After which, from there, you could tell me what areas I could improve in.
If you're good at confrontation, then come break me.

Went to Tiong Bahru with Enik, Adelyne and Yuying today.
Had a really cool time with them - it's nice being with people I haven't been too close with.
It's heartwarming making them laugh and you know you're just so appreciated and loved.
Then I met Esther (Lin Lao Shi) on the free shuttle bus to Plaza Singapura.
I took it because I wanted a ride to any bus stop which had 171 or 174 passing by, and it's FOC as well.
She doesn't mind teaching me Math! I've been asking God for a good math tuition teacher who is experienced and who offers a reasonable price and it's just.. WOAAAH :)

Lord You are my provision and my portion.
Make me more like You.
To always love, to always forgive and to always have Your strength in place of my own.
Because I stumble and grow weary but You said that if I place my hope and trust in You,
I will soar like the wings of eagles and be empowered by Your Spirit.
The world has been talking so much about You, there has been so many controversies about Christianity.
I don't care if people think it's a religion that teaches us the same values or whatever- this came with a heavy price.
Why would someone want a 'religion' if they couldn't connect spiritually with You?
Would they want to have their prayers offered up in vain because of a mere belief that there is a god that one can never reach?
But You reach down in love for us, Lord.
We do good because of Your love and it's not because of our works that we should be loved by You.
You loved us first and that's why Lord, I've chosen to walk the straight and narrow way.
Not the wide and winding road that leads to destruction.
I thank You that I have faith, Daddy God, give me more in running this race to conquering my O Levels, give me faith that You will see me through the flames no matter what.

Just b'cos there's a God, it doesn't mean there are no more problems. But at least we have Him in all our situations.

Refine me...
I'll take the pain and trials - because You're in it with me and that makes all the difference.
I'll sow the seeds and You can help me look after it and water them and in the end, We'll be reaping the harvest.
And abundant and bountiful it shall be.

Ok here's something new i've learnt from God's Word:
Gossip = Murder / any other sin
So i've been looking out for myself doing any twittering behind people's backs or even sitting in to listen
I'm trying to stop entertaining gossipers, really
Because..


I just hope my friends have patience with me, them being the world and watching me make my stand. I just hope they have the sensitivity to not expose words I use in which guilt should fall upon. It was so embarrassing having myself get exposed to someone else whom I told 'Don't talk about people like that'.
Suddenly I realise how critical the world is.
To say someone looks gross is an entire level from saying "her hair's straightness is weird".
But somehow it was placed on the same scale which really hurt me because of how she exposed me, and I walked off feeling extremely wronged for it.
That table of friends doesn't feel the same anymore anyway.
Sure, you can call me a social butterfly or whatever, but I know what friends deserve to be cherished, not friends who leave you at the parade square waiting all alone when you called her personally on the phone 20 minutes before, hoping she'll at least have the bloody heart to come downstairs and sit with you.
Yeah you might probably think 'why is she still harping over this?' but holes will remain holes forever and I'll always remember the way you think of yourself first and never others.
Never others.
I know you might probably tell someone else you think it's you and I'd like to say YES IT'S YOU and I don't go un-liking a person without seeing through someone's heart (at least not for people like you, that is).
You might probably say that I'm awful and evil and proud. Say whatever you wanna.
I don't wanna sound like someone who's self-righteous but if I had told you, will you change to see yourself for who you are around people? You say yeah? Could I just say that IT'S SO EASY FOR WORDS TO COME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH AND YET YOU NEVER ACT ON IT. I'VE SEEN IT FAR TOO MANY TIMES AND IT SCARES AND CHEATS ON OUR FRIENDSHIP, EVEN.
After which, from there, you could tell me what areas I could improve in.
If you're good at confrontation, then come break me.

Went to Tiong Bahru with Enik, Adelyne and Yuying today.
Had a really cool time with them - it's nice being with people I haven't been too close with.
It's heartwarming making them laugh and you know you're just so appreciated and loved.
Then I met Esther (Lin Lao Shi) on the free shuttle bus to Plaza Singapura.
I took it because I wanted a ride to any bus stop which had 171 or 174 passing by, and it's FOC as well.
She doesn't mind teaching me Math! I've been asking God for a good math tuition teacher who is experienced and who offers a reasonable price and it's just.. WOAAAH :)

Lord You are my provision and my portion.
Make me more like You.
To always love, to always forgive and to always have Your strength in place of my own.
Because I stumble and grow weary but You said that if I place my hope and trust in You,
I will soar like the wings of eagles and be empowered by Your Spirit.
The world has been talking so much about You, there has been so many controversies about Christianity.
I don't care if people think it's a religion that teaches us the same values or whatever- this came with a heavy price.
Why would someone want a 'religion' if they couldn't connect spiritually with You?
Would they want to have their prayers offered up in vain because of a mere belief that there is a god that one can never reach?
But You reach down in love for us, Lord.
We do good because of Your love and it's not because of our works that we should be loved by You.
You loved us first and that's why Lord, I've chosen to walk the straight and narrow way.
Not the wide and winding road that leads to destruction.
I thank You that I have faith, Daddy God, give me more in running this race to conquering my O Levels, give me faith that You will see me through the flames no matter what.

Just b'cos there's a God, it doesn't mean there are no more problems. But at least we have Him in all our situations.

Refine me...
I'll take the pain and trials - because You're in it with me and that makes all the difference.
I'll sow the seeds and You can help me look after it and water them and in the end, We'll be reaping the harvest.
And abundant and bountiful it shall be.