★And she just spoke so much truth into this lil bird brain of mine.
God put me in my school for a reason, and that I have another gift besides my voice.
I never actually had someone tell it to me but hey, this gift is in me and I'm bursting with excitement to see how it glorifies Him in its very own special way.
"Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit." - Peter Ustinov
"In the final analysis, love is the only reflection of man's worth." - Bill Wundram, Iowa Quad Cities Times
Isn't this true, guys.
Isn't this true.
So about that phone call.. it somehow changed everything for me.
God spoke through Diane and I couldn't say no to Him.
I couldn't say no to Him about forcing myself to go for the worship ministry interview just because I have a good voice- I wouldn't be using my gift for Him but for the build-up of my own ego.
I couldn't say no to Him about trying to love- and when I say try, I mean LOVING till I suffer.
LOVING every single one of you, imperfect as you are..
LOVING till I cry into my pillow through this process of refinement.
And I'm just so overwhelmed by the fact that Jesus got hung up on the cross for me.. just because He loves ME in my GAY ways, ME in my FILTHY and UNDESERVING ways.
... me.
So I'm gonna love the most irritating person in the world and if, in a life and death situation, I'd save the one who's the hardest to love than someone who's more favourable.
I can't say I'll be getting there anytime soon but it's a first step- a real, genuine step, not a false one. Not a pretence, not a facade but yeah, yknow, something I can take and look back without regretting.
It's gonna be so worthwhile that rejoicing could mean me jumping into the Singapore River one fine day.
Speaking of the River!
Belle, Char and I spent Valentine's Day together at Clarke Quay: SHOPPING
I'm really satisfied with my buys, especially the O.P.I nail lacquer that I got at a reasonable price.
It's a dark purple which kinda comes off as a shade of midnight electric blue, so both of my favourite colours mixed in one pretty bottle!
A day to remember, it sure is :)
Today I attended New Creation church after Sunday School.
Oh and I bought PINK's new CD at $(THIRTEEN NINETY-FIVE)!!!
The word S-A-L-E slapped me out of my emo reverie as I was sauntering along City Hall and gawd, I'm SO gonna get Kings of Leon.
This week.. ah.. no more gossip for me (a reduction, at least) and no F words.
Pric, no, I don't agree with you that gossip is good- in any way.
Hahaha gossip=gay.
Yes Trinity is confirmed!!!
I'll really miss you guys though.. I swear I'll send you guys letters and stuff.
The internet seems fake to me.
(Then again, I ain't fake on this lil piece of optic-fibre-empowered sanity)
So this week I've been rather quiet except during Chinese and EL/Literature lessons.
I've been in the background, mostly, really.
I haven't been high at the appropriate moments, even.
I'm just taking my time, watching people, watching people make decisions, watching you.. too..
!
So yeah, moving on.. Home, in its most beautiful ways.. has been my sanctuary for the past one year and many more years to come. I love lying nude on my bed in 23 degrees of cold air staring at the ceiling talking to God. It's seriously much better than getting botox for headaches.
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