Once broken, considered sold.
Even if I told you I fancied you,
I know I can do that without regretting, I know you -
you're not someone who lets go of a friendship that easily.
I wonder if you're taking a drag somewhere now.
Say you've lost yourself, darling, recklessly, upon that broken road,
And you're trying to trace the steps back but you can't find them.
I'm still searching, too.
Search with me.
You'd be glad to.
I'll be over the moon.
Waiting.
As long as you don't take too long.
Liling
9.3.08
I woke up late for church, reached at 9 o'clock.
Watched people pass me by as I sauntered up the red brick road listening to I Get It by Chevelle.
I looked at the walls, at the ACS poster..
Church didn't feel like church today.
It felt distant.
Felt like I hadn't been there for ages.
It felt almost .. cold.
Sunday School felt better, and I was happy to see Wei Jun again.
We carried on the lesson about the second coming of Christ.
Lord, I don't care how you come or when you come, I just want you here and now.
I don't know why but my fire's burning out.
So tonight, I'm going to read my Bible, do my QT and have a short worship alone with God as the audience.
After that we hung around the booth for awhile. I signed up for camp and we went to 10.30 Sunday School for worship.
We did our robot dance onstage and it was FANTASTIC.
Julian did a really retarded dance. I loved it.
Then we left Ryan and John to play soccer and walked across to Waffletown to eat lunch.
Walked back with Gerald Tan for the subcomm meeting.
I feel stressed. I just want to set aside 4 days for God.
Why can't I live the way I want to?
They're set aside means they're set aside.
Why must I fulfil other requirements when I just want to spend time with my Maker.
Wish those days were untouched, unoccupied - left alone for me and church camp.
I realised that I have heightened in my faith and longing for God, because in Sec One, my purpose for church camp was for the fun.
But now it's to give back all that He has given me.
Like leading worship with my voice, and growing more in love through Hospitality ministry.
Yeaaah then I took the MRT with Charmaine, got off at Outram Park and met Martin, Keith and Mr. Mysterious at the jamming studio.
I shall learn Paramore's previous album's songs so Keith can play 'em.
Jamming was alright, I couldn't ask for anything more.
Later Martin and I took a bus to Queensway and met Leslie there.
He could almost get his blue Nike shoes but it didn't fit him. LIFE IS UNFAIR.
Yep:) Then we met Angel at The Cathay and sat around upstairs, debating about The Leap Years and 10,000 BC.
In the end we flipped the coin, and 10,000 BC won but Leslie being Leslie, bought tickets for The Leap Years.
Yeaaah then we took the escalators downstairs because I got hungry, I got chicken, shared it and kinda talked about Big Noses and Sweaty Armpits.
So the time finally arrived and WE WATCHED THE LEAP YEARS.
Gawd I want my daughter to be born on the 29th of February so badly.
It's so special. WHY AM I BORN ON THE 30TH OF NOVEMBAAAH! WHYYY.
I cried when Wong Li Lin cried. I tried to feel as much as I could about her heartbreak.
I wanted to "climb into her skin and walk around in it".
It's so beautiful, even if I don't believe in the wind deciding my destiny or throwing my hand-written wishes on the highest level of the OCBC Bank building, or meeting someone every four years.
How long could that feeling last?
But crushes fade, don't they?
Still you arrest me with your charm.
Spill fiction while my back is turned, when you've got an easy target.
Build strength, and your heart is gone.
You tell my back that you're more courageous.
We've got our souls held in this dark hotel room.
You're taking chances for the worst and the worst is yet to come.
9.3.08
