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Hahah I love you, JH!
Today, Chinese tuition was very serious. In fact, it was so grave that I actually cried. Normally I don't look at my Chinese notebook - that's where all the homework is written down in and when my teacher notes that she should collect payment. She showed me this bilingual thingo in the "Zhou Bao", which is supposed to help me in improving my Chinese oral. I didn't look at my notebook last week, and she actually wrote there that I was supposed to read it. Then she can test me on it, and somehow my Chinese oral will get better. I seriously didn't think if I didn't read it, she'd test me on it. She said (in Chinese) "you should know my character by now after teaching you for so long." I was just STUNNED when she say that. I tried to tell her I didn't know she'd test me! I don't know why, but she suddenly blamed me, because I didn't take responsibility in reading her notebook. I was just taken by storm because she didn't really blame me for not doing homework, and I can still scrape through and get a B3 for Chinese on my PPR (pupil's progress report). But she told me that I'm in Secondary Three now, that I should put in much more effort and take responsibility, and everything I didn't do last time - I should start doing it now. Like discarding my laziness, like START DOING THE HOMEWORK that she assigns. It was such an easy message to be put across to me, but she blew it up until I was like, shocked by her reaction for the first time? And it was the very first time that I broke down in front of her, and the cause was that she reprimanded me. I wonder why I broke down. I felt so fragile suddenly. When I cried she tried to take a lighter tone, and I could see she was kinda shocked to see me cry too. But I couldn't help it. So I took her words, and yeah, I really have to improve. She also told me that I can't keep saying people let me down - because the fault lies with me, not others. Not just me, but teenagers in general. Somehow she's making me stronger, training me to face the world next time, and not just because I'm born in a family that can afford more means I can slack my way through life. Somehow I'm grateful to her that she raised her voice a little bit, and the message that she got across is now implanted in my head. In fact, it's gonna play like a broken record for the whole of this year and when I'm in Secondary 4. Lao Shi also reminded me that she's only going to be with me till next year. After the O levels I won't see her again. I'm gonna miss her. I want her to teach me forever. I feel.. sad. I love Lao Shi. She's like my Mom when Mom isn't her.
com·pla·cent
(kəm-plā'sənt)adj. Contented to a fault; self-satisfied and unconcerned.
That's what I am.
I needa realise, needa realise.
Oh, crashed Spageddies with Shaun yesterday after school.
My food owned. His food owned too.
I might go out with Angel tonight.
But first, I need money!
And I need to paint the nails on my right hand!
I can't go out with only the left side painted:D
My holidays aren't holidays.
Let's just say, it's working non-stop without school.
The most ridiculous thing is, I'm bringing my homework to camp.
But I'm not gonna complain about it; it's only right that I do so.
screw drama.
