I spent the entire time span of it laughing throughout.
But while laughing, I felt that my insides were breaking apart.
I broke down during Math remedial class today.
Siti was there, Charmaine was holding my arm, Syahidah asked if I was okay, Nicole Tee asked if I needed to talk, Justin Chew asked "Loh Li Ling, are you okay? We sing you song leh" and the entire row of guys sitting behind me sang "Loh Loh Loh Loh Liling!" (Low, Flo-rida ft. T-pain)
And the people I needed most weren't there. Weren't weren't weren't there.
Today I feel like as if my whole world is against me.
It's as if you guys don't want me anymore.
I sit at the canteen table but nobody talks to me properly. Because Shaun wasn't there, probably.
Nicole Tee says "try to fit in for the sake of fitting in because that's how we get accepted."
Really? Guys. I don't want to be all fake and smiley. GUYS. ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?
If you're any one of those individuals in that video or if you wanna know what I'm going through right now, do read these lyrics.
We Are Broken - Paramore
I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun.
With my wide eyes,
I've seen worlds that don't belong.
My mouth is dry,
With words I cannot verbalize.
Tell me why,
We live like this.
Keep me safe inside.
Your arms like towers,
Tower over me, yeaaah
'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
Cause we just wanna be whole.
Lock the doors,
'Cause I'd like to capture this voice.
It came to me tonight,
So everyone will have a choice.
And under red lights,
I'll show myself it wasn't forged.
We're at war,
We live like this.
Keep me safe inside.
Your arms like towers,
Tower over me.
'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
'Cause we just wanna be whole.
Tower over me
Tower over me
And I'll take the truth at any cost.
'Cause we are broken.
What must we do to restore,
Our innocence,
And all the promise we adored?
Give us life again,
'Cause we just wanna be whole.
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GFY, bitch.
Called me an effing bitch huh?
It takes one to know the other, BITCH.
Ever took a look at the mirror?
:) Odour face.
