Today I broke down in school and only Nicole knew.
I only wanted Nicole to be there for personal reasons.
I hate it when people say Cheer Up.
They don't even recognise the problem.
But I'm not going to wallow in my own self-pity.
Five minutes a day, like Jacqui.
Just five minutes a day.
I still want to cry.
So I'm going to time myself. I've no life?
Whatever.
I'm still going to cell.
I'm going to talk to Lifeng.
I need advice.
This week has been.hell.
I don't wanna feel like that anymore.
I don't want to.
They say "God wasn't there for me."
Then John tells me "It's a test! To see how you'll react to Him."
Well, God, You know what?
I don't wanna take Your test.
I just want You here right now.
I hate holding on. It's killing me, not making me stronger.
5.42 PM to 5.47 PM starts now.
22.2.08