So now yknow, there's no more surprises.

About everything that a certain someone blogged about, I do agree in some parts.

But why doesn't he realise, that we're all so broken up inside;

And that's why we need God.

Not to tell others how we should take the wheel of our lives.

Because sometimes we just can't.

We fail. We lose control.

We stumble. We fall.

We fall in love and even deeper into it no matter how much it hurts.

But that's why we all need God, to seek Him and to know that with Him, nothing can harm us. That with Him, even emotions have no say over our lives or actions or mindset- whatever.

So in all, I disagree with the blogger.

But I guess that's how every backslider feels, that he goes unnoticed, and he shuts God out of his life.

I can't live without God. I can't. I can't get through one day without talking or even knowing that everything that happens in my life is by Him. I can't live without Him there holding my hand, embracing me with open arms when the world turns its back against me.

I can't get through the exams without knowing it's by His grace that He let me pass my EOY Math paper. I could've gotten 49.5 but no, He gave me a 50, because I guess He saw my effort.
And I praise You Lord, for being such an awesome and loving God.

That I not only can respect you, I can LOVE You back too.

Because You don't look at my past wrongs.

You don't want me to wallow in guilt.

You want me to live a life that is significant to You, a life that can surrender all my worldly desires to You, to just develop a heart for You.

You want me to know that You're there.

And as my Dad says it "If you believe He's there, He's there. But if you don't, then He isn't."
That's a lie.
That's a lie.

The first 'page' of Debbie's blog touched me, and I just cried in front of the computer the first time I read it.

I used those words to comfort people at church camp, and to remember that Mother Teresa, being a woman of God, suffered trials and tribulations but always reached out for Him, just to listen to His still small voice - but it never came, even after years.

when I can't feel You
I have learned to reach out just the same
when I can't hear You
I know You still hear every word I pray
and I want You
more than I wanna live another day
and as I wait for You
maybe I'm made more
faithful

He loves me and you, and us being so undeserving, yet He gave up His all for us n the cross.
Yet when we break His heart, He doesn't force His way into our lives.
He knocks at the door gently.
But He will never barge in.
Tears? He has seen them all. Hurt? He has felt it all.
Temptation - He has gone through it all, when Jesus was at His weakest, the Devil attacked Him.

Satan may see Christ on the cross as a defeat, but God sees Christ on the cross as a victory.
And that victory is ours to keep. To rejoice over.

THIS IS HOW WE OVERCOME.

Heal my heart and make it clean,
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love like You have loved me.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours,
I give everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause.
As I walk from earth into eternity.

Hosanna in the highest.

Malaysia wasn't as fun as I expected it to be.
The shopping lifted my spirits though.
Had tuition at Miss Tan's yesterday afternoon.
Later I went up to Angel's house at night, she made me laugh like crazy again.
And her grandmum is super cute, especially when she gets emotional in front of the TV.
Then the last event of the day was Carolling Practice.
I can sing alto better now:)
I can't wait for Friday to come.
We've got our Sec Three cell.
I know, right! Tell me about it!!
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