One day when I'm older, I'll leave for another country where I can start life afresh.
Because right now, you're bringing me down EVERYDAY.
I wish you weren't my Mum.
Daddy just got a car accident.
He's fine, the car isn't that fine.
His poor CLS.
Now he can't drive me to buy tidbits at night.
And I was the first one to hold his hands.
So there we were, holding hands and looking at his wrecked car.
The moment was short, but I knew he appreciated me for being quiet with him for awhile.
Woke up at 7.59 AM to accompany Melina to school to watch Sheren's dance for the graduating classes.
Watched Weiling sing.
She was too nervous, so her voice was not that good.
Left school for Serene Centre.
Herman came over to pass me my guitar.
Olivia and Angel came, and we ate Macdonald's. (brrrr!)
They were teasing my "______ is awesome!" phrase.
Okay, I just like the word awesome. It's so awesome XD
Yeah, then Jolyn came.
Uh huh. We ate at Island Creamery.
After that I took 186 back to school for drama.
YEAH MAN, I LIVE FOR DRAMA SESSIONS.
That was the only time when I could like, get out of me.
So I cherish every drama session I have.
I'm wanted for acting during Open House day and some board decoration.
I'm also in charge of Sec Ones and Sec Twos who are gonna watch Chitty Chitty Bang Bang next Wednesday.
Lots of leadership roles for me, and I'm quite ..uh.. happy.
I just told my Mum off.
In a way which I didn't have to strain my voice, or shout.
I said she has to watch what she says.
I can't post what exactly happened here because you, reader, do not know my Mum and you have not felt the hurt she has caused me.
I don't want you, being a friend, to say she's correct and I'm wrong.
Okay I shall tell you, if you can understand me well enough.
She says I'm hyperactive, and for one - I am not.
I know how to be quiet sometimes too right?
Everyone uses the excuses of being "high" when they can't control their emotions.
But I'm not giving you excuses now.
I need someone to hold onto.
So I said that "I'm so much more than what you see on the surface."
I grabbed my bowl of soup, and went straight to my room.
She said "Aiyo" in an audible voice for me to hear.
I try not to be affected by her sarcasm or 'unfeelingness" but I can't help it.
I may have inherited that woman's eyes, but my eyes see SO EFFING MORE than hers.
One day, Jesus, I won't cry when she says these things to me anymore.
I will not.
.. but right now, I think I shall.
15.11.07
