Ever felt like crying and yet, tears don't come out?
That's pain.
A kind of pain so hurtful you can't even cry out.
You're just mute with nothing that can justify your actions.
After all the battles you've lost, you've to lose the war too.
Sure, it's not about winning.
But in the end, everyone blames me.
They tell me not to hate people.
I don't. But now she does.
That's what I'm feeling right now, about that certain someone.
Friends for a year, friends who have held your hand and laughed with you.
Now they turn their back on you.
They don't wanna try to understand things that have gone wrong in your life.
Because part of the tragedy is theirs.
When part of it is theirs, they make misery your company.
They don't care.
They may feign it, but they make you believe with all your might that they don't care.
And fools like me believe in that shit.
Fools who feel too much, fools like me.
On Kel's conversation:
kelvin.- can't let you go says:
why things become like that de T.T
MICHELLE says:
she can hate mi to the core but i don hate at all in my heart.
MICHELLE says:
humans are not always right de
kelvin.- can't let you go says:
MICHELLE says:
theres wrong and right in the WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MICHELLE says:
even though she hates mi. she still my fren lor
And on mine:
MICHELLE says:
i didn't mean to say all those things... i just didn't understand your problems about money
MICHELLE says:
paiseh
But suddenly, problems like these have made me found true friends.
Mr Sairi said that "the teeth and tongue may bite each other, but they're still very close to each other."
I'm sorry for making you guys feel this way.
And I forgive you guys for making me that way.
This and that way, yeaaaah.
It was a totallll misunderstanding.
But hey, now everything's fine, ain't it?
I love you guys.
Everyone.
Nicole, Shaun, Michelle, most of all Kelvin, for helping me understand.
There's imperfection, but that's what makes our friendship even more perfect, right?
I don't wanna tell you. Because part of me and her was because of you.
TLL class was not bad.
We can help to make poverty history too.
But I'll type that out tomorrow.
Maybe.
I'm watching Stardust with Melina next Monday.
We painted the walls with Angeline, Mr Sairi, p6 kids and their teacher today at the skate park just behind Queenstown MRT.
It was fun, and Mr Sairi gave us free rides and treated us to chicken rice.
So after today, just let me emphasize this:
We're all okay now. Ooooo-kaaaay-eeee.
I love Sec Two.
Even the problems rock my life:D
So I shan't blame anyone anymore.
Or myself, even.
I'll give it all to God.
God, I think You're crazy to put me through this.
But suddenly, the grey skies have all cleared up.
& that's so .. You.
7.11.07
