I wish I wasn't so emotional and as some say, thoughtful.
I wish I didn't remember everyone in my life and their special personalities so vividly.
That way,
Maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't be feeling lovesick.
Or even missing you when we aren't even together.
I can't break it to you; I'm afraid of rejection.
Because I'm not slim and sexy like any other girl.
Because I'll probably be out of breath if we ever go running on the track.
Because I wear almost the same thing when we go out.
I'm just hoping that one day you'll see the glamorous side of me.
Honestly, I've been going crazy over you.
I've been staring at your MSN nick for ages.
I've been reading our message history all over again and each time, I laugh at myself.
Thinking about you makes my face spread into a wide, silly grin.
It's a joy I can't keep in.
But you're a guy; you can't help it can you?
You need a pretty girl to be your girlfriend.
I guess you aren't that shallow.
But still, I really don't know.
Thanks for the promise you made.
I appreciate it.
I appreciate every little thing about you.
The way you look at me.
The way you look out for me, even.
The way you brush your arm against mine.
And it's warm.
The way you shake hands with me for no apparent reason.
The songs you sing with me.
The words you type online.
Every. single. detail.
IT'S MAKING ME GO CRAZYYYYYYYYY.
AHHHHHHHHHH WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO HOT AND EMOTIONAL AND SENTIMENTAL AND EVERYTHING THAT I WANT.
God will let me go for whoever I wanna fall in love with.
Just as long as I don't get myself hurt.
Just as long as I don't backslide.
He's always here for me.
And so Lord, I shall think of You first.
"Do people secretly lust after you?"
No I don't think so. But maybe after the one I fancy, definitely.
I'll try to kiss you if you'd let me.
Really. I will.
Hahaha, but it's just me.
And underaged thinking.
My oh my, what foolish thinking I have.
