So now yknow, there's no more surprises.

I'm changing myself just to stand alone in your arms.
Lalala, make me over.

My fingers are sore from playing the guitar.
I can't seem to get my chords right.
I tried playing Perfect by Simple Plan.
The first stanza sounded okay.
Then I gave up later, because it sounded horrible.
I must get to know and to memorise all my chords by December.
I'm listening to Storm.
Had trouble walking in school today,
Sprained my toe, probably while playing basketball at Nanyang.
Dad helped me to stick some medication plaster on.
I'll be wearing slippers at school tomorrow, yes I will :)
Today I went on stage to be recognised for winning the trophy.
I'm sure God was smiling down at me.

These few days I've been feeling empty.
I was leaning against the cold marble with a bare back in the bathroom.
Cara told me she felt empty last time.
I thought it was impossible, but no.
Now I know how it feels like to be empty.
Today I'm not a Christian.
I don't care how much I've been sinning this week.
I don't care what God sees me as.
But I wish I cared.
Then I wouldn't be feeling this distressed now.
I don't even feel sorry.
What does God expect me to feel?
I really don't know.
I wanna feel that fire and passion again for You, Lord.
I want You to be my First Love again.
Someone please help me.
I'm so empty.
And I can't help it.
I'm helpless.
Sigh.