Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool out of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won.
My head is spinning after dancing to Memory by Sugarcult.
Thrashing my hair around and screaming into my pillow was a good way to get rid of the hurt and anger.
I don't like feeling my heartbeat against my ribcage.
It means I'm angry. And I get suicidal when I have that feeling.
Last night I was hurt.
This afternoon I was hurt.
I feel tired of trying to be strong.
I don't radiate glow or sunshine. I'm really a typhoon inside.
Winds keep howling and I destroy anything that pisses me off.
I was still thinking twice of whether pushing the Ancient Man off his chair would do me good.
My body was almost off my chair when I just sat back down.
I couldn't do it. I just put my head onto the table and cried.
I feel helpless.
Worst of all, I feel heartbroken.
I think my friends were all there for me.
Yes, I luuuuurve you guys!
Thank you :)
Yesterday was hilarious, with Vanida and Michelle at Central Mall.
We walked everywhereeeee and picked pretty ZO cards to keep/collect!
We took pictures and saw many posh restaurants and had Turkish icecream.
"No chicken icecream!" says the Turkish icecream seller. ;D
Yeaaaah. Today I remember sitting with Enzhao, Vanida and Michelle for lunch.
We were finishing up our $1 potato and laughing at the same time.
I guess it's times like these that I'll cherish and never forget.
It's quite simple, just sharing plates of sweet chilli and mayo potato wedges.
But it comes from the heart, and it's the simplest kind of love for a friend :)
I'm glad I've got you guys.
I'm leading worship next Sunday! So hurray.
My mummy says I can skip TLL class.
I'm relieved.
Cheers (:
17.7.07
