Something my Sweetheart Nicole! and I promised to post:
"Today Sweetheart and I were standing outside the classroom,
Because Mdm Zhang wouldn't allow us to be without our textbooks!
She said that it'd be unfair to the other students.
But what the heck anyway;
I was enjoying the wind in my hair with my Sweetheart outside,
And I even showed her jazz dance movements I learned on TV last night ;D! "
Mood: Apathetic.
Thought: I can't smile.
Maybe it's the premenstrual stress that's making me feel this way.
I left my pencilcase on the canteen table.
And I'm not happy, because 3/4 of its contents are gone.
I won't let the devil get a foothold of me.
I'm angry, and I know it's not righteous anger.
But I guess God understands how I feel.
It's unfair. I could kill someone right now.
And I don't really care about praying for Cara's plucked out teeth right now.
I don't really care about the aunties and my Mum laughing on the deck.
It's disgusting laughter, like the sound of witches cackling after eating durian.
I don't really care about the homework that I must pass up tomorrow.
I don't care!
Caring less might do me some good.
Then I won't feel all these stupid, crazy feelings getting mixed up together.
I'd probably get immune to all this shit.
It has been a really pissing second part of the day.
Now I can't watch The Hills at 1pm tomorrow,
Because I'll be at school having Home Economics.
Bloody Task Analysis. I'm just so tired.
I'd like to scream into something while listening to Secondhand Serenade.
Oh goodness. Pillow, where are you?
SOMEONE HELP ME RECORD DOWN THE HILLS!
I promise I'll kiss you :)
Ending quote: Go figure.
30.7.07
