but liling's 'ren ge' is nice lor.
'ren ge' nice den okay la. but you should mix with people whose grades are better.
i feel so much like giving up.
that's how grades have affected me as a person and my thinking.
but i know i shouldn't. with people bringing me down occassionally, its hard being strong.
everything just sucks soo much.
shaun's mum brought me down.
my own mum brought me down.
i'm over it, she's not.
my mum doesnt't know about how i'm feeling.
and i don't intend to tell her. she doesn't listen.
even if she does, it doesn't get into her brain.
mdm zhang encourages me to be a realist.
right now, it's so hard being one. i feel like a failure.
32/36. 133/152.
i bet if they tested me on personality or discernment, i'd top the level.
grades don't make out a person. but yeah, i admit i am lazy.
i just hate my grades so much. because they're pieces of me.
worse still, my mum doesn't have compassion.
my conclusion is:
when your grades drop, the individual is affected the most.
even if my parents don't see it. i'm just proud of myself.
proud that for the first time in my life, i cried because of my grades.
and not because my mum makes me feel like a failure.
or other mothers who have poor judgement.
so shit you people who think education is the key.
why don't you go learn and teach me instead of bringing me down?
so what if you're my mum. you're not even my friend.
get a grip, mother. and stay outta my mind.
it hurts, because your words crash around me.
leave space for my tears man, stop your demoralising.
shit you.
26.5.07
