if i could live for a million years,
i would be right there to catch your tears.
hello.
im feeling quite fucked up these few days.
i did my bestie a dishonor.
& i must say, it's really hard to make her forgive me.
she thinks im a hypocrite.
maybe i am.
i know that everyone has feelings.
but maybe i wasn't aware of hers.
i hate the way i scold her.
or something like that.
last night i spent 2 hours just thinking about our friendship.
it seemed like we would never fall out with each other.
but now it's over.
seeing her in school causes the tension level to increase.
and it's just really hard.
i wnat her back.
but yet, taking a step of courage is that difficult that it makes me cry,
i know she cried over it too.
her swollen eyes which i saw on tuesday morning proved it all.
sigh.
screaming isn't on my list yet.
just the paper soaked with tears.
somehow, i feel connected to vanida.
i wonder if she feels that way too.
hmm.
just wondering (:
22.1.07
