new lyrics
but so tired to type em out
cos i gotta piece em together
realised even if he has the most outstanding personality
no personality can ever measure up to Jesus
i wonder why i'm being put through this
i hope God tells me something once i'm over it
maybe He wants (very much) to have my heart all over again
and i'm just so unwilling to give it to Him
i'm eating an apple for recess
i will get back on this diet plan and shed those kilos once and for all
i questioned my motives about slimming down
and i have come to a conclusion
to prove to everyone that
i just need to do the natural and God will do the supernatural
cos dieting makes my moods fluctuate like mad
but He will make it easy peasy like ABC
even ABC is tougher
i'm happy i've got nice people around me
God will you not let gossip strike the tongues and hearts of my friends or even me
it will blacken our hearts
like molten slag in chemistry
we'll be so hard and so numb that we could be bitumen
and we could make roads
and when cars run over us
we won't feel the pain
but just that this pain is called Guilt
hello Guilt
Lord let me speak truth in every situation i face
let me not laugh or make sick jokes
give me a spirit of Restraint and a spirit of joy
that even in my pain and hurt i will know where comfort is found
C for comfort
C is in the shape of a cradle
See?
safe safe cradle that rocks me gently and that will not fall
because it is Your arms that i am held in;
Your love that i am embraced by,
help me to trust in You
that you will soothe and calm my raging seas and unpredictable tempers
help me be gentle and quiet
quiet but loud in a way that shows people
who I am in You
and friend
if i haven't been the Christian you wanted to see
i am sorry, truly i am, but i'm flawmore
not flaw-less
forgive me, just know that i am trying
if i have sinned against you will you forgive me
i beg for it, i long for your forgiveness
i am true and genuine
i pray you will grant me your love and your peace
and Lord, let them not judge me entirely
but to judge You for what You've done for us
all bad situations are not sent by You
You let them happen because they test our faith and You know how much we can bear
God we've made it this far
keep me and my friends strong
help my friends to taste then see you for who You are
to taste
to have that one taste
to open their hearts
to be vulnerable towards Your love
because once they have tasted
before seeing You for who You are
they will not take their eyes away from You
keep me and my friends strong
keep me and my dad and mom and my family strong
christianity is not a religion
because we don't work for grace to befall us
we don't labour in vain to be loved by the God who split the red seas
who struck down many great kings
who touched Michael Jackson's heart
because "at the end of the day, even the King of Pop must bow down to the King of Kings"
i love You, my mighty mighty Jesus
i am weak but You avenge the humble who have been judged unjustly
i am weak Jesus but You are
mighty.
in my pain
and in Your name i pray
Amen
(which means,
let it come true)
29.7.09
28.7.09
today i cried very softly in class nobody knew and it felt good so many things are uncertain now so much so that i really want to just throw my Dad's reluctance aside and move on with the decisions and dreams that i want to come true, to take place Cheryl told me when God closes a door, He opens up another i trust You i'll close my eyes and trust it, just trust it sigh. why is it you you you. but then again i have no regrets wish i walked the whole earth with you new song coming up on those words i thought of in the shower the shower is a happy place fuck i can't stop crying i just can't stop |
26.7.09
Blogger is not working properly. Which means I can't type in the big box like I used to and I can't change font or colour. And no pictures either ): Yesterday was hilarious/fun/a teeny bit productive. I don't want to go into detail - I can't go into detail because my brain isn't warmed up yet (lie). Winsent is an OMG guy. I never knew he could talk about people in such an innocent but bloody funny way. And Nida, being Nida, just the way I love her. And Shawn, being insightful and someone to talk to as always, just the way I know he'll remain. I bet Chuan Yong was secretly scared of the movie we watched, The Haunting in Connecticut. (ZAI!) Cheng Ern disappeared before we could say bye! Aw. Anyway, the movie was really disturbing. It wasn't THAT scary but keeping eyelids in a box with the lashes still intact is .. YEUCK and o.O at the same time. Winsent and I both thought the eyelids were ginseng slices HAHAHA I thought the main actor looked alot like Chuck Bass. It wasn't Ed Westwick acting though. Nida told me to look at two guys diagonally behind from where we were sitting and they were covering their eyes and ears and looking really, really bewildered. We obviously couldn't stop laughing. And somebody spilled sprite on me when it was halfway through the emotional part. Then we went to Bugis and studied at Mcdonald's. I know I understood half of that Set and Notation topic and I drew the lion's eye on my artwork. So I did work. Shawn and Winsent started laughing at my work because it looked weird and out of proportion - which I meant it to be! Then after dinner we were at Starbucks and they said I could look like a cavewoman if I wanted to. (With what? An entire strip of hair under my armpits like Year One?!) And Nida said I look Middle Eastern-ish and they tried to make me feel better with all sorts of sweet nothings that did not captivate me at all! I don't want to look like a cavewoman! Cavewomen are ugly - OH YES THEY ARE :O We left and when I complained about not liking bathing so late in the night, Shawn and Winsent said I don't bathe. And they did some Malay accent shit like "cill cill" which means "chill" and when I started talking to them again, they were like "got ask you meh?" kinda thing. I obviously laughed. In the taxi -oh my- they tried to make me tell a secret so they started telling each other empty secrets and were like "Eh funny right? Funny right? Eh Liling, we are sharing secrets leh! See la, you don't wanna share! So funny right?!" Giggle giggle giggle. Then I told Shawn stuff while walking to the bus stop before rushing home to a very grumpy Dad. Jealousy is like poison - just that it penetrates your veins and bloodstream, not mine. A pigeon has been walking on the grey roof opposite my view for 10 minutes now. Now it's on the brown roof. It's a pretty pigeon and there's another brown girlie pigeon at the top. Perhaps they're flirting. |
22.7.09
I was just thinking that if God transcends all time, He probably knows the constant and source of randomness too. |
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13.7.09
The distance from me to where you'd be I am On my bed Listening to Set The Fire To The Third Bar Again I came home Took off my shoes and socks Greeted a guest And went into my room Put down my bag Sauntered into the bathroom Took my uniform off Took a good look at my coldsore Stepped in Doused my heavy heart and head with water Slapped on loads of creamy soap Gripped the sides of my arms Looked at the dustbin And wondered If these feelings should be thrown away Or if you had thrown these feelings away first I suppose so Since you were the one who told me to Advance Move on Then slowly I started to cry I said no But they just kept gushing down And with my sore, dry voice I sang 'Like dreaming Pink wildfire The last place we left off..' And I washed up Left my thoughts in there Because you probably stopped halfway along this journey Journey to nowhere But at least its nowhere, isn't it? So I Looked at the selection of Brit Pop on iTunes And thought to myself How could I ever let you influence me in such a massive, disgusting way So you can give me back my bloody heart Before I turn bloopy My freaking heart damn it. So you can either look at me. Or turn away from my eyes for the million-th time I hate the way you make me feel And guess what the best part is... It's not your fault It's mine. |
11.7.09
6.7.09
I am now treated unfairly and judged unjustly but i will trust in the Lord and put my hope in Him to prove you wrong and for Him to prove me to be your bloody definition of 'likeable' Forgiveness is banging on my door begging me to let it come in into my heart this life support-ish muscle but how can it, it's not even pumping independently now because your heart and your feelings towards me DO NOT ALLIGN TO MINE Dear Forgiveness, you can come in but i will not say a word or take the initiative because Forgiveness, letting you in is all i can stretch myself to do which is ENOUGH. |
2.7.09
Justin says: ass=drums Ling remembers the God of Israel whose light broke through her night! says: guys=leprechauns Justin says: liling=shithole with sugar and cherry fried rice\ Then last night Boon was like "Oh do set one of TROPICAL tests" Ahahahaha |
1.7.09
i think these are the kinda moods that i hate the kinds when you make a wish over your eyebrow hair instead of your eyelash the kinds when you have soap in your eye but you don't rinse it with water in the bathroom it stings, but you lean your head against the wall crying anyway it's like when everyone thinks you're stupid but then again, they don't mean it then i think to myself, is it my period that's creeping up to attack my uterus again? "i think so," says the womb, "i'm starting to feel heavy again" "yes you dimwit, i gave the signal already!" says the pus-filled pimple on your face you shrug and stare at yourself in the mirror, naked, and you aren't even shocked at how a foreign germ bubble and your sensory organ just communicated with each other and you actually understand 'body' language hahahaaa kel's back in school and so is nida lynette and i had fun during chemistry i seriously like physics practicals art was very productive....... not. okay so if you ask me how art thou (thee) i think i'm moody and tired and i have essays to finish but i can't blame nobody for it, "because you were supposed to finish it during the holidays!" now i don't feel like listening to anything but Opera. not phantom of the opera kind, no, but like the ones you watch in the Opera House in Paris then the taxi drives you back to the hotel to get changed for dinner past the eiffel tower that has glittering lights all over at 7.00 sharp in the evening and past the black painted pole in the tunnel that Princess Diana's car crashed into eons ago i'm smelling the rose scent of a soap bar i bought from Zagreb, Croatia i really want to get away right now. yeah maybe my family can afford it and all, but i shall work hard just like you guys, i won't rely on any financial assistance until i prove to myself i can be as financially stable as to travel the world with a partner. i will emphasize on one point. do not. use my lingo. for whoever tries to, don't. you learn new words from reading books/ newspapers. not ling's blog. "The World's Best Job" starts today Ben Southall is some lucky shit so is my friend Kanika too~ nicole tee is the best studying table buddy i could ever have and God knew just who to put me with how come You know me so well sia...aa@@@... no love-in today |
28.6.09
Lord, If ever I should fall, May I fall at your feet, And never away from You. |
25.6.09
dear friends, i just realised that the most annoying thing about doing english compositions on microsoft word is the cursor. it keeps waiting. it's blinking in my head now. it's making my blood boil. your friend, lll |
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